A New Gay Best Friend

I don't know why, lately I have always been asking God to give me a gay best friend instead of just a normal guy for a friend or a boyfriend in His time when I'm ready. I have nothing to hide about this fact to the people around me, but I am pretty sure I'm gonna get some weird or even laugh expressions from them. And because of this reason, I didn't tell anybody about it yet, not even my parents nor my best friend, just between me & God.
Why do I want a gay best friend & who is my inspiration behind all this, you might ask. I am inspired by Adam Lambert a lot, a runner up of American Idol Season 8, my most favourite singing idol, a person who is nominated as the first openly gay artist to the world. I can't specify why I really have wanted a gay best friend, but I do know the reasons of why I have been asking so.
In my opinion, a gay bestfriend could probably be better than a straight or even bi best friend. Because I think a gay could never fall for me (since I'm a woman & he's a gay) and yeah we can hell learn about a lot of stuff since the both of us are extremely different. In my defense, a bi bestfriend can just fall for me (because they are bi but unforunately I am not thinking to be a part time bi) & a straight best friend is really normal to have (I'm still thinking to keep it too though). Tragically, in the end, some straight bestfriends can be our foes. So I have decided that I want to have something different; I wanna try something new in my friendship life. Maybe someone that will never be my foe in the end.
My second opinion upon a gay bestfriend is that they can also help my studies that I'm going to take really soon in my university which is psychology. When you have a gay bestfriend, you can at least help them by being their friend while learning at the same time. I am not saying that I'm somehow gonna use them as my laboratory rabbit, but I'm curious upon knowing the causes of why there are such people like so. Maybe, I could have published a book about it after.
Thirdly, I wanted to expand my wings on friendship & community. I want to grow in a place where I can truly be myself without pretending that I like them or I don't like them. I want to have many friends, just as everybody does. I want them to have the same perception as me about being friends with normal, gay's or bi's. For me, a community like this can really help me to learn & develop so many of my things that not has been my specialty such as confidece, love, unity, & acceptance.
In confidence I mean to walk out proudly to the people of the world about being me & also helping him to embrace his status among the people that he is gay. Love is as in to not differ people because of different status', friends or foe, gay or bi, but to love everyone because they actually deserve it. Unity is being together with everyone, not differenciating & pushing them apart because they are different, but coming strong together because I know it's what's good to do. And lastly, acceptance is basically about accepting people for who they are & who they are going to be, no matter what status they bring with them at the time.
Surely, in this kind of case Adam Lambert is not only an influence to me through his songs & change a bit of my mindset, but he had also helped me learn about a new essence I would never learn if I never had a gay idol like him. I would still be asking God for this one specific friend in my life other than anything else; but for now, I know I have something else to do which is as important as asking for a gay bestfriend: make myself learn to treat him as a straight even though in my mind I would still have to remind myself that he -in fact is a gay. I have to treat him both as a gay & straight. Something not so easy to do. But if he is worth the wait for the status of my gay best friend, then I will try to practice as hard as I could.

-red Glow13Productions