Teori Ekonomi JJ

            Perkenalkan, nama saya adalah Gloria Ernita. Saya menyandang gelar “Pakar Teori Ekonomi Ngasal Jomblo Friksional”. Hasil karya saya ini merupakan hasil karya tesis kedua saya, karena waktu itu saya gagal skripsi. Saya sangat terpukul saudara-saudara! Bayangkan saja, usaha saya mencari sebuah teori selama 1,5 tahun ditolak mentah-mentah oleh penguji. Maaf saudara-saudara, emosi saya meluap.

Kata penguji skripsi saya hari itu, teori ekonomi yang saya berikan tidak valid. Jadi ya sudah, saya mengulang lagi 5 tahun hingga sampailah saya pada saat yang berbahagia dengan selamat sentausa. Ya, saya akhirnya menemukan sebuah teori yang saya sudah buktikan kebenarannya. Teori ini saya berikan nama “Teori Ekonomi JJ” yang terinspirasi dari dua sahabat saya yang terdahulu. JJ adalah singkatan dari... emmm, maaf tidak bisa saya beri tahu arti JJ karena singkatan ini menyangkut hajat hidup banyak klassemen hewan. Mari, saya jelaskan teori saya.

            Teori JJ berbunyi begini:

“semakin lama JJ menghabiskan waktu di Alfamart, semakin kecil benda yang akan dia beli. Ukuran benda berbanding terbalik dengan lamanya waktu yang dihabiskan.”

            Dalam teori JJ, saya tidak dapat menyebutkan besar kecilnya nominal yang dihabiskan JJ di alfamart karena harga barang tergantung tingkat level kesadaran untuk menghemat uang. Jika sedang boros, wajar saja jika barang yang kecil tersebut akan berharga sangat mahal.

            Pada normalnya, manusia akan memenuhi fungsi teori ini:

“ukuran belanjaan akan berbanding lurus dengan waktu yang dihabiskan sesuai dengan kocek”.

            NAH! Kemudian timbul pertanyaan. Apakah, atau lebih tepatnya siapakah sosok “JJ” ini! Betul, baru saja akan terpikir hal ini setelah saya menyebutkannya. JJ adalah sejenis homo sapiens dari mantan SMA saya dahulu yang memang berbeda dari kita semua. Jika kita adalah homo sapiens - homo sapiens normal, dia ini merupakan homosapiens gagal fermentasi sehingga menimbulkan efek samping pada cara berpikir dan pola tingkah lakunya sehari-hari.

            Jadi, teori saya sudah terbukti benar. Homo sapiens gagal fermentasi akan muncul disekitar kita tanpa sadar dan hanya mereka yang dapat memenuhi variabel utama teori ekonomi JJ saya ini. Jika kita kurang berhati-hati dalam mengenali mereka, bisa saja kita terkontaminasi bibit-bibit gagal fermentasi mereka.

Bibit-bibit kegagalan tersebut sangat bisa tertanam dalam diri kita sendiri lalu kemudian kita juga menjadi manusia-manusia aneh seperti mereka. Jangan PERNAH mau menjadi seperti mereka.

            Waspadalah, Waspadalah.... (ngikutin gaya bang napi yang ada di acara tipi-tipi jadul itu) *musik horror* -red

The Essence of BBEO

Later that the midpoint of that year, I finally found the real essence of why I have always wanted to call this book “BBE Originals”. I told very few people about what I wanted to achieve in terms of books, but I always told them that I do have a big expectation over myself in the future.

As you have all understood, this book is called BBE Originals or Big Brand Evolution Originals. I used to stop until the word Big Brand Evolution when I first came up with this book’s name, but then I realized that there would be a higher chance leading to misunderstanding about what BBE itself should have been about. So, I finally have to add a little bit of what it is, the word original at the end and make the Big Brand Evolution itself an abbreviation.

Let me tell you what it means to me personally as a writer. We can separate BBE Originals into three separate sections that leads to 1 final crucial meaning which are Big Brand, Evolution, and the word Originals itself.

The “Big Brand” is actually insighted as me, the writer. Why did I considerate myself as a big brand? Well, in my own perception, Big Brand does not always have to speak about a dead product that went through a timeless invention, but we (as humans) are also a big creation created by God. That’s what came into my mind.

Now, the word “Evolution”. Evolution means a slow change taking up a big space over a long period of time. It is basically what it is in my geography book.

Lastly, “Originals”. It have quite explains itself I guess. Originals is actually somewhat a state of creation when someone came up with something from his or her mind that anyone else haven’t came up with. So, he/she finally decided to clarify to the institution that he/she is the person who came up with this idea first.

How BBE Originals finally work on me is this way: I am a person that have been going through years of creative writing practice (that I tried to let you see how I started writing and progressing until now). This practice I had didn’t come instantly when I first write, but it took me years and it is all an original idea that I came up with. Either I am inspired by the living things surrounding me or the dead visuals I see through my own two eyes.

I assume that BBE Originals doesn’t only occur on me personally but also to everyone out there who is willing to reach their dreams. Even though I sometimes want to write and produce as what a few of my creative writing mentors have produced earlier than me, I cannot do that because we have different style of writing and what’s mine is mine yet what’s theirs is theirs.

BBE to me is already one of the three dreams coming true in my young age. I do believe that dreams of a man doesn’t simply end in just under one title or just in one chapter of a book, but it is a process of the chapters in the book. The same as how my BBE have gone through years of process and is finally finished, it is the way of how our lives have different stories contained in our life’s book. -red

My Dreams

            I seriously never thought that things would turn out to be like this in my life. Seriously. God’s favor is so great upon us that I couldn’t even say thank you enough for what He have done to me.

            At some point of my lIfe, I still keep 3 elongated dreams tidily inside my heart. I can feel that I need to achieve these things to fulfill my calling in life and I know that I  will feel so good if I can achieve what I can visualize in my mind yet best felt in my heart. 1 dream of mine is truly what my passion is in, and the 2 others are like what I actually want to see happening and achieved in my lfe.

            A psychologist is still my number 1 passion; 1 dream since I was so young which turns out to be something I think which finally brought me and the kid Bryan on the same page. Since we knew that each of us shared the same dream of going to UI (the best university in Indonesia for some important majors like psychology and doctor), we drew each other a lot of attention without anyone else doing us what I expect them to do.

            The first thing I want to achieve is writing a book I call “BBE Originals”. BBE itself stands for Big Brand Evoution, something I say to myself as that everbody may have different perspections about things and I can make what I want to make in my life. I want to let people know about how I feel and see things in my 3-dimensionist view of a young writer. I didn’t really know why didn’t I have any other title for my book simply because they aren’t suitable enough to reflect my true feelings about what I wanted to share to them and so I guess BBE Originals is what it is in a lot of way.

            Last, it’s something that I want to have that i can buy by money. The 2 dreams before can be done by heartful and determination but this one is by hardwork and money. I wanted a DSLR either canon or nikon; I tolerate any. Since I love photography and could’ve had any sudden death inspirations upon stuff, cameras can easily help me to realitize the photogaphic ideas I can possibly have anywhere and anytime I go.

            Beyond all of those dreams I have, I crave one thing above all that I can think of: I wanted to give true worship to my one and only LORD. Without Him, I would never be what I am today. Through the experience of my long lost laptop and so many other details, I learnt so many heartful things that I wouldn’t ever get if I never lost my laptop at this tme of year. I do believe things happen for a reason and there is no alteration to not say thank you to my most beloved Creator. All that I can see and to all that have passed through my veins, I am most honored. -red

The World That Slowly Dies

         I can never understand this world. No, I will never understand it. I have too many history questions to ask, too diverse yet too demanding, and there are too many theories my brain can ever take. I am not capable of understanding of so many diverse things together at the same time in this life; but I can surely tell you that the world is slowly dying.

            KARMA wasn’t always equal to those existing as other living things rather than what it was said to us as humans. Try to take this as my earlist example: We are somehow bothered by the existance of tiny animals such as mosquitoes and ants, especially when most of the time they didn’t cause us harm in our daily lives. When those animals also receives the equality to live, we would squish them to death without even letting them in into justice. I wonder if karma can be said as equal when we say that is our context.

            Or maybe to trees. Are we ever be said as “right” if we cut trees down and make paper to then write “SAVE THE TREES” on them. No, that is never right. But we did it,  who denies? Karma has a lot to do more than just judging wether we are wrong enough to be given something bad in return or not. Therefore, try to see this the way I see it and tell me if karma is even equal to our own race.

            Trace what happens to our nation back then in 1998 when 4 souls of our very own are dead by the police and army. Are they purposefully wrong when all they have to offer is themselves for the justice of their country? Is it the right thing to do for the army to kill their own race, their own blood brothers bearing the same nation? Who are those people who paid tax to feed the police and army if not for the nation? If we only want justice and a new governance over the nation, why do the government have to take more than what they could bear? Did not they understand the effect if that happens? Never they think of the sake of the country? Is karma equal to the 4 souls paid for the government to come down in the end? No it is not. Souls are high priced possesions anyone living can purposefully asked for because without souls, we are nothing  but walking meat with a name.

            Nowadays, houses of the poor are getting more and more destroyed by the local governors. They say, the land worth more than what these lowly people are able to do. But these people have the rights to live wherever they like, right? And when the government can say no more when they cannot give the better houses they have promised, what would they say to those people? Well they wouldn’t understand that because all they know is what you will give them after they finally let go of their most beloved house. The question is: where will they live now? Are those houses are as good or even better than their last? Why are these rich people are so greedy that they would do anything just to gain more money and not thinking about their other brothers and sister of the same kind? Are their lives not as precious as theirs? If there are a lot of empty houses and shops in the big road that used to be these villagers houses, then why do they have to build it in the first place? Shouldn’t the villagers have what they need more importantly than money? Now, is karma applicable as equal when you are thinking about the people living under the normal living standards of human? I AM sad.

            Seems to me that karma has everything to do with the world’s slowly aging death. Besides of its really negative things brought up to the frontline, I slowly regret to say that karma may not be more equal or better than what there is to offer to people. I may not be able to defend every people’s right in front of the judge today because my arguments are not yet stronger, but one day in this slowly dying world, I WILL help someone or more to gain what is right for them to have. Not for money and not by money, but purely by seeing what is right.

            That world that slowly dies ain’t coming in better. -red

SEMANGAT ‘45

Ga berasa, ini udah hari ke-4 aja. Gue semangat banget besok tinggal satu mata ujian lagi yang belom gue lewatin dengan jumawa dan barusan aja gue menyelesaikan 2 tes seperti hari-hari sebelumnya. Hari ini gue agak deg-degan aja sih hasilnya bakal keluar gimana soalnya banyak soalnya yang ngejelimet dan menguji otak buat gue pikir-pikir ulang terus itu soal sampe ngedapetin jawaban yang terbaik. Iya, hari ini kita tes Ekonomi dan Sosiologi.

Sumpah gue ga bisa lebih bersyukur kebanding hari ini. Kenapa? Gue sadar banget kalo satu permintaan gue sedang dikerjain sama Tuhan: gue semalem niat belajar buat 2 hari Final Test terakhir. Iya, Gloria seneng banget karena Gloria belajar (jujur loh, itu pencapaian baru).

Sekali lagi harus gue katakan, final outcome gue walaupun nilai beberapa mata ujian gue mungkin ngga terlalu memuaskan seperti semester kemaren, at least gue udah ngebuktiin kalo gue bisa berjuang. Gue mampu semingu jumpalitan tidur malem bangun pagi dan jadi kutu buku sepanjang minggu. Puasa nonton televisi (tapi ga bisa puasa Twitter® soalnya stress tingkat kronis), persisten nulis hampir 2 note per hari, nyicil, dan menghabiskan Sabtu-Minggu dengan produktif. Jujur, menemukan hal-hal tersebut dalam diri gue adalah sebuah kepuasan batin yang sebelumnya ngga pernah gue rasain. Gue semangat dan ngga ada yang bisa padamin api itu.

Sejauh ini baru satu mapel yang gue dapet nilai ngga memuaskan. Buat gue yang setidaknya udah usaha berat buat satu mapel itu, berapapun nilai yang tertulis di form informasi membuat gue setidaknya ngga deg-degan lagi lulus apa engga (karena emang udah tau ngga lulus juga) dan udah tau hasil usaha gue ternyata ngga sia-sia amat; masih ada hasilnya dari kerja keras itu. As far as I’m concerned, this last period of test week made me something of what I’ve never thought of being before. I had a new attitude in perserverance and I am happy with it.

Sisa waktu sosiologi masih ada satu jam penuh – gue yang udah kelar dan tinggal ngecek ulang hasil jawaban gue malah asik mikirin hasil note yang lagi dikerjain ini. Tatapan gue jauh menerawang kedepan sembari pikiran gue jauh berpikir apa yang belum gue lakukan sejauh proses pengenalan diri ini berlangsung dan usaha apa yang bisa gue kelarin di masa depan. Gue bersyukur banget kalo gue bisa lulus pelajaran-pelajaran yang lulus by hard work dan favor Tuhan. Temen-temen sekelas gue banyak banget yang ga lulus ini dan ga lulus itu (walaupun yang lulus semua juga banyak sih). Namun gue bener-bener belajar aja kalo hard work ples ngelibatin Tuhan dalam segala hal ini akan bermujur baik. As long as we tried, there’s quite nothing impossible to regret about.

Terakhir dari kisah semangat ’45 adalah temen yang hari Senin kemaren gue ceritain gue harapin minta answersheet kosong dari gue. Inget cerita itu? Iya, hari ini pelumas ngulang pelajaran yang gue gagal itu adalah kenyataan akhir dimana dia beneran minta kertas itu ke gue. Dia bilang: “Glor, minta answersheet dong! *nyengir* gue ngeliat itu”.

Gue kepikir, sebenernya gue bukan mau ngumpetin answersheet itu sampe dia harus bilang “gue ngeliat itu”. Entah apa pola pikir yang lagi aktif di otak dia. Eitherways, tadi dia sempet lewat belakang kursi gue pas masih jam ekonomi. Yaudahlah, itu cuman seper-sekian detik waktu yang lewat di depan mata gue.

Gue inget persis perkataan dia pas minta ansewersheet tadi; bukan karena gue kesengsem ato gimana sama dia. Tapi karena gue tau, momen itu bisa aja jadi terakhir kalinya gue akan pernah berinteraksi sedeket itu sama orang yang udah jadi kayak sahabat gue sendiri.

Doain gue ya fren, gue harus tau masih ada harapan buat besok dan masih harus ada kerja keras yang gue usahain sebelom gue boleh ngomong puas sama hasil kerjaan gue sendiri. Gue sayang banget sama lo. -red