He Did

He’d fought. And when he did, he’d fought hard

It was the last time we had our small talks. Yes, today. August 19th 2014. To hear his deep loud breath that I’ve fallen in for; to look at his big round eyes up close; to taste the bits of beliefs that he will not cheat on you no matter what. To believe that somehow, anyhow – that we will never depart from each other forever.

But that wasn’t the truth. We ARE drifting apart. He IS going away someday. Someday, because I don’t know which day will that day be. Someday, because I will never know which day will be the last.

In fact, it was the only last moments of mutualism we share; it was loud enough to be heard by my memory.

I’ll miss his loud mouth. I’ll miss his huge grin. I’ll miss his postures and all the gentleness we’ve known he’s had since we were classmates. But most of all, I’ll miss his physical presence from deep within. I will never be able to tell him that I had fallen for him once and that those good things of him had never changed since day 1.

Even though I know that I’ve fallen for him for the wrong reasons those few years back, now I know that I value him as much as he valued us women. I used to be blind – but yes, I still have loved him for all his dead bad reasons and I’ll just love him for more.

His name... his name is always mr. Simple. He is always that one guy we could look up to when we needed help on a few subjects he mastered. That guy whom everybody can rely on for teamwork and music work. That guy with the most athletic story anyone has ever heard in life. Someone with such great initiative and underlying care for all of his classmates. Though some physical changes have occured on himself, there is this one thing he’d never change to me: his attentiveness.

Boys with those kinds of sensitivity are damn sexy, you know.

But most of all, I want us to never end. I don’t want him to leave. I don’t want to say goodbye. I want us to be forever. –red