Anything, call it

I hate when people have to actually leave my life. Whoever they are, they matter so much for me. I have ever lost a very good friend in an early age, I've also lost a guy who had been my love for a year, I've lost the best cousin in my life, I've lost somethings I never realize I'll be sad living without it.

Lately, I've had a terrible week at school since I'm sitting in my last year of secondary school. All pressure is on my shoulder, I felt I just can't do it. So many new things emerge unexpectedly as I grew older that expects me to cherish in many ways.

I will have my piano grade test at the end of this month which I have just mastered maybe about 50% of it and I am scared to death every time people freaked me with just mentioning it. There will also be me who be the worship leader and singing in the opening at my school 10th birthday this December. I am totally screwed on it because the arrangement and the aggregate demand my music teacher and the CEO team has prepared made the stakes so high for me that I need to keep a great speed on it in which our practice is only a month and it's only 4 times on Fridays. We will meet again soon on the GR which stressed me out because I haven't made a blast and if I made the mistake I would ruin the whole school thing and they're possibly or possibly not depend on me the most in this thing. Great, just great. I also be the church usher or something unexpectedly. Wow, didn't realize that was coming. Our 9th grade will also have CELD (Comprehensive English Language Day) and sing a poem song. That's the worst stuff happening now really. Haven't practice by the way.

I also have felt some bad distress lately. Liking 3 people at the same time which I like in so different ways. However, since the day I made a commitment that I won't date somebody until I finished High School I would try my best to distract my mind from anything that will make me remembered the old days and stupidly felt unwell. So I guess today's theme was probably about my sadness, I hope I can get over it soon. Thanks for listening and wish me the best for assembly tomorrow. I planned to stand beside my crush though. HOHOHO :$