Where Are Ü Now?

I was almost always in love with you until the day you broke my heart.

I was almost blinded by the lights you shone through the darkened days; and recovering the repercussions weren’t even as nice when your light finally shifts again.

I almost made myself sure that there is nobody else I craved but you but then you showed me I didn’t matter.

I was so deeply fallen that no act of reconciliation was meant to unlove someone I called “you”.

And yes, as hard as it could get, I should accept the fact that now you are no longer available for me to be craven – that you are not someone worth to be longed for.

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I gave you the key when the door wasn’t open

See I gave you faith you turned doubt into hoping

Now I’m all alone my joy turns to moping

Tell me here: where are you that I need you?

Where are you now?

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I was devastated for sure.

My heart never skips anymore beat when you are around; I never felt anymore than a piece of crap whenever we passed each other on campus; I was never happy to see you more than I did a few weeks ago.

The heartbroken was devastating because I know how hard you fell for her instead of me; and falling, for you, means not breaking anymore laws of loving someone else but her.

The broken feels inevitable; and it hurts because then it wouldn’t get back to the original state anymore – everybody else would have to love me in those torn pieces. Everybody else but you – because you never even cared.

I was devastated, because I needed you the most.

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Where are u now that I need you? Couldn’t find you anywhere.

When you broke down I didn’t leave you; I was by your side.

So where are you now that I need you?

Where are you now that I need you?

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And what, you’d blame me for liking you?

How am I suppose to run from loving someone I didn’t even personally choose?

I liked you for no reasons. I was never able to tell my friends why I liked you because I just did; because loving you seems right; because loving you is the only comfortable wam thing I could ever give you other than my unintended attention.

You’d blame me for breaking my own heart without your acknowledgement?

How am I suppose to get your attention when your eyes are all fixed on her? Should I really tell you I’d taken the blame now?

What if I blame you for pouring all those to her instead of me?

What if I told you it was wrong for loving someone as pathetic as her?

Wouldn’t you get hurt? Wouldn’t you be angry?

Wouldn’t you defend her?

And that is exactly what I’d done if ever anyone else knows what I feel towards you and asked me to leave – because as much as I said I’ve moved on, I never really can take my eyes off you.

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I gave you attention when nobody else was payin’; no

I showed you the game everbody else was playin’; that’s for sure

I was on my knees when nobody else was prayin’; oh Lord

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For years, I haven’t feel this wounded.

And I’ll tell you what: this wound hurts.

This wound hurts like it’s going to kill me in seconds.

In case I didn’t bite this pain, though, please know that I’d still be asking where are you now and thinks you’re the only one I needed the most. –red

Jack Ü ft. Justin Bieber’s “ Where Are Ü Now?”